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A Love Half Full



Love and Travel Week

This article is part of Love and Travel week on Almost Fearless as we turn October into Lovetober (cue Barry White music). We’re celebrating the release of Swept: Love with a Chance of Drowning by Torre DeRoche—a true story about how one girl confronted her deepest fears for love by jumping aboard a leaky sailboat for the adventure of a lifetime.

In this post, Kim Dinan shares her story of suddenly finding herself uphappy with the white picket dream. Kim and her husband Brian recently sold their house and all of their possessions. In June of 2012 they will be quitting their jobs and taking off to travel slowly around the world. Kim writes about their journey at So Many Places. Catch Kim on Twitter.

A Love Half Full – by Kim Dinan

In the winter of 2009 I reached the pinnacle of my unhappiness.

From the outside, my life looked great. I was married to a wonderful man, we owned a cute house in a fun neighborhood, and we both had well-paying jobs. We were young and on top of the world. We had enough money to take nice vacations and buy things we wanted.

We’d finally reached the place we’d been working for, but I wasn’t happy. I blamed my job for my unhappiness. I blamed the weather. Worst of all, I blamed my husband. I wondered: Why can’t he make me happy?

Unhappily Married

It got pretty bad. We talked about divorce. Brian wanted the car, I would keep the couch.

The thing was, I knew the source of my unhappiness and it wasn’t my marriage. Brian could grow wings and grant wishes, he could cough up gold coins, but it wouldn’t have made any difference.

Some people talk about callings, inner voices or personal legends. About the thing they were put on earth to do. Some people just know what it is that fills them up. I knew. And I was unhappy because I’d been ignoring that truth for so long that it now screamed inside my head: Kim, this is not what your life is for.

The truth was, I wanted to write for a living and I wanted to travel the world. I didn’t want a big house or kids or a fancy career. I wanted experiences and adventure. And because it was the thing that I wanted more than everything else, I was just too terrified to say it out loud.

I felt I had two options: Ignore the voice and live the rest of my life barely breathing, or listen to the voice regardless of the consequences.

I decided I had to listen.

I told Brian everything. I told him that my inner voice had become so loud that I just couldn’t ignore it anymore. I told him that I had no idea how to create the kind of life that I dreamed of but I had to try because my soul depended on it. And I told him no matter where this road led I hoped he would come with me. I loved him and I wanted him there.

And Brian said yes.

Happy Marriage

Since that time a million things have happened. We turned our life upside down and shook, let all of the little pieces fall out onto the ground.

On my blog So Many Places, I’m the one who tells the story, but Brian is the hero. I have been able to take big leaps because Brian’s love and faith in me gives me the courage to jump. When I fall, he falls with me, and it doesn’t hurt so bad.

I don’t know how you get blessed with love. I do know that the only way to receive love and return it in the way it deserves is to become who you are deep down inside. When you honor the voice inside of you, you allow yourself to show up full. Then, the love your partner gives you can make your cup run over.

Love

If you’re looking for a gripping book to read, we recommend Swept: Love with a Chance of Drowning by Torre DeRoche. If you need some inspiration to take a big, scary leap, this is the book for you.

Get 10% off the ebook if you buy now through Almost Fearless (use the discount code LOVE at checkout).

Swept: Love with a Chance of Drowning

Christine Gilbert

I’ve been dragging my husband around the world since 2008 always with the promise that, “Yes, Drew there will definitely be hammocks there.”

THERE ARE RARELY HAMMOCKS.

http://christinegilbert.com

41 comments

  • I love Kim and Brians story. It’s a true love story and she shares it so honestly and passionately. I can’t wait until they hit the road so that I can listen to her tell about their adventures from afar.

  • “Amazing,” “WOW,” wouldn’t sum up how “incredible” this post is. BRAVO for making us go to the core of our hearts!

  • Kudos to Kim! So many people dream of doing what Kim did but to actually do it – that takes guts! On Pink Pangea, the community for women travelers, Colleen writes about finally quitting her job and selling everything she owned to travel the world http://ow.ly/73kEo. It is quite literally a dream come true for her.

  • What a fantastic story. I especially love this:

    “I don’t know how you get blessed with love. I do know that the only way to receive love and return it in the way it deserves is to become who you are deep down inside. When you honor the voice inside of you, you allow yourself to show up full.”

  • “I do know that the only way to receive love and return it in the way it deserves is to become who you are deep down inside.”

    I love this line. To me it epitomizes what the Love and Travel Week is all about. 🙂

  • Oh Kim, it’s official- we were separated at birth! Again, just like the first time I stumbled upon your inspiring blog, I am gobsmacked at how much I identify with you. Thank you for this beautiful insight into your inner self, I think you are both lucky to have each other 🙂

  • Thanks everyone for the wonderful comments, I am smiling from ear to ear! And thank you Christine and Torre for the opportunity to be a part of Love and Travel week.

  • Verklempt!! I got teary when I read what others have already pointed to: “I do know that the only way to receive love and return it in the way it deserves is to become who you are deep down inside.”

    • You are welcome! To be honest I was sort of freaking out about writing about it, but hearing that others can relate to it makes it worth it.

  • oh how i wish every love story could end this way, kim! so happy for you, and admire you so much for having the courage to speak up! look at the reward you got for doing so. what a great example for us all. such a great post! 🙂

  • The beginning of the story could be mine. The ending is not. My ex-husband and I did not weather that storm. We both had deeper healing to do apart before we could find our own paths again. But I do not view this as failure. I spoke up about my inner voice, and knew he couldn’t come along. We parted, and my deepening into life has continued with him as a long-distance sometimes friend. The real success in your story from my perspective is your courage to express your authentic voice. That your wonderful husband is willing and able to align with that is very sweet and rich icing on the cake. Thank you for sharing and inspiring!!

    • Cara, I totally agree with you, the success in my story is that I found the courage to speak the truth and IT WAS NOT EASY. I had no idea how it would affect my marriage but I knew I couldn’t live any other way. It was the hardest and best thing I have ever done, and life is rich because of it.

  • I found your website awhile ago. It is great to see you on this site. I can soooo relate to your story! My husband and I have been living the suburban life with 2 kids, a dog and 6 cats….surrounded by friends and family. However, our conversations would always turn to how we just felt like we weren’t being authentic to ourselves.

    After turning 50 this summer, losing several close friends and relatives….we decided to pull the trigger on a life adventure. We both have given our jobs notice and we depart with our almost 12 year old boy/girl twins for a trip around the world. Most people think it’s the most fantastic thing they have ever heard.

    We are beyond excited and are truly grateful that we are finally honoring who we are as people AND giving our children the legacy that honors who we are.

    Enjoy the ride!!

    • Annie,

      Congratulations on your upcoming adventures. What a great gift to give your children, the example that they, too, can live their dreams.

  • Love can be a painful thing but also very redeeming. Risk is hard – especially in marriage. You can be the best in your marriage when you are the best you that you can be.

    • It was a huge risk. When I made the decision to follow my heart/truth/voice whatever you want to call it, I had no idea what would happen. It was scary. But not being true to myself was even scarier. I just got to a point where I couldn’t live like that anymore, so I had to make that decision.

  • Kim, it was such a boost to my husband to read Brian’s post a while back and then to chat with you guys on Tuesday… It’s endlessly humbling to be on the receiving end of another person’s sacrifice and love. How blessed we are!

    • Bethany, I passed the world along to Brian. I’m so glad his post helped your husband. We are quite blessed, aren’t we?

  • I think it is absolutely amazing that your husband was willing to realize your dream and encourage and help it flourish! Beautiful story! 🙂

  • “I don’t know how you get blessed with love.” You don’t ask! You just enjoy! And feel blessed! And run away and be happy forever and ever!

    Oh WAIT! You’re doing that. 🙂

    We shall meet for that bottle of wine someday, my friend…

  • I love the honesty, what an inspiration to us all that listening to the inner voice doesn’t mean letting go of everything else. Beautiful story of what it means to be married.

    Thanks for sharing!

  • To my wonderful sister! Have me crying at work again:) I love hearing you tell your story, it makes me so proud to be a part of you and B’s family. The commitment you two have to one another is aspiring- wishing to find something so strong myself, someday

  • Thank you so much for sharing your story with us Kim. I am glad that you were able to make it through all the hard times and come out on top. That is the sign of a good marriage if you can make it through the bad times. If the book is anything close to as good as your story then I am sure that it is well worth buying.

  • So, my question to Kim is, what if you start realizing your inner voice at a stage, when you don’t have the resources to live it through? do yo wait? what do you really do?

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